Is It Worth It?

What will it cost me?" I ask.


"Everything you have...and then some." He replies.


The next logical question is, "Is it worth it?" It's a fair question. Even Jesus tells us to "count the cost" as one of His parables is often paraphrased.


Is it worth it? Following Christ, a decidedly different and more difficult path than simply believing in Christ, isn't easy.  In fact it's downright hard; and this seems to be the problem. G.K. Chesterton once said, "Christianity has not been tried and found wanting; it's been found difficult and not tried."


I think of that especially as I work through different trials. When I begin to get upset (which happens all to easily) and start asking those same old questions we all do: "Why me?!?"; "What did I do?"; "Where are you God when I'm being 'attacked'?"; and the one I think but never say, "I don't deserve this God, I was good this owe me."; I often feel like I hear God speaking into my heart saying, "You gave me your life... right? This is what I've chosen to do with what's mine."


I often forget that.  That my life is not my own.  That I was bought at a price. That what I bought with my life was His life, and with it salvation, and that that is worth whatever price I paid and however that "price" demonstrates itself in the course of my life in the way of trials and struggles. To my shame I often forget that.


This last week I was working through, what in my head, seemed like some pretty good trials and I was reminded of a few things that I think are helpful to keep in mind as we face the brokenness and unfairness of this world:


1. We gave our lives, our whole lives. Our lives are NOT our own. We were bought at a price. Our salvation wasn't cheap, not for us, and certainly not for God. our lives are His now to do with whatever  He wants. I have to remember that when I want my life to be easy and my trials can serve to remind me, when I take me role in God's plan lightly; salvation wasn't cheap and I agreed to the price.


2. We were definitlely asked if we were ready to pay the whole price, but we are rarely, if ever, asked to give it. Again to my shame, I'm sorry to say that my petty (in hindsight) trials, seem so significant to me when they rarely affect anything of consequence in my life save my comfort level. I have not died (physically) for my faith, I have not been persecuted (outright), and I actually live a very blessed and comfortable life. Not bad for someone who gave their life away.  God has been good to me and I realize in my blessing just how low the cost of my salvation, contrary to its initial quote, has been. That thought gives me perspective.


3. It's worth it. In my trials last week I just so happened to be reading Job. In reading through his trials I could so easily see how proud God was of him and how his trials were not simply the product of an unfair and broken world, but rather a bragging God; a God proud of His child, "Consider my servant."  Job was God's trophy! A light to the world and a even a light to a world unseen to us! Job's trials were simply God allowing Job to "shine." I need to remember that. That God is bragging about me when I face a trial. Taunting the enemy with our relationship and His belief in my trust of Him. I am a light to the world! And God is allowing me to shine. Makes me think differently about my trials.